I owe it to you.

This morning I realized that as I grow up I can see some qualities of my mom to myself. Maybe because of the fact that she's my mother, I came from her, literally. Lately, I've been seeing changes of hobbies, tastes/preferences. Now, I'm really excited to bake, something that she really loves. I'm looking forward for an oven this week.

When I was a kid I used to ask myself 'why does she always changes the position of the furnitures inside the house?' I really didn't get it. And guess what, this morning I was doing the same thing in my apartment. 

One of her hobbies was also planting. I didn't use to get the charm of the plants. I found it boring back then, but this morning I wanted to have some flowers in the stairs.

I'm really surprised and very glad of myself. My mother raised me up so well. She gave me and still showing  me an never ending love. I feel very lucky to have her. She never gave up to do her best just for her children's happiness. Dad is very lucky to have her too and I'm also very blessed to have them both. I love them very much and always will. 

It was love, i know.

It was love, i know. The first time I met you we sparked and you know that. I don't believe in love at first sight but I think our case was an exception. Our thing was rare, undefined but there was something we can't deny to each other. You showed me efforts, composed a song for me, which I consider as one of the most beautiful thing one can do for me, came to visit me despite the distance. But you know what? I hate the fact that I didn't arrive at the right time, that I'm far away to be with you, that we could be perfect but we just can't be.

I told myself before not to get attached, but it's inevitable. I didn't want to fall but I guess I did. I don't want to say goodbye either. I don't know if I'll be glad to see you again someday. I don't know if I should start going away from you. Should I? Won't you love waking up with the sweetest smile every morning light?

'If I make you happy don't act like it is something bad. Happiness is the best thing that one can ever give to you, so treasure me and I'll treasure you.'

-J.F